((:

2007-05-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

why is love such motherfuckin complicated matter? why can't it be easy, like you just love one person,thats that. no other third party or exs. no flings, no onenightstand. why?

i'm bored.

2007-04-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

hello blogspot, i'm back for good.

2006-09-18T03:18:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE.

2006-07-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

www.xanga.com/michsar

the end

2006-07-26T16:29:00.000+08:00

after 3 yrs of ranting,
i'm shifting.

goodbye blogger & my readers.

say helloo to xanga (((:

2006-07-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

& i miss the boy so much.
he sure knows how to make his babygirl happy.

a phone call all the way from aust just to tell me he loves me (:

& lunch at pizzahut with sis,
talk talk, laugh, talk, whine, rant, laugh.
& dinner with the family.
the topic is all bout sis wedding.

you oh you

2006-07-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

no more password.
there's too many friends asking for it.

& some are really nice people that i heart.
even though i want to keep it private, i dont know how to say no to them.

so, here you go.

njoy my dear readers.

monday so ?

2006-07-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

as usual, my endless ranting bout school.
i hate school.
totally.

my whole back damn red.
pain, but worth it.
oh, is the 7th month.
wonder will mom allow me to go tann this month.

sab's getting married next yr.
& she ask me to be her bridesmaid.
i thought she'd ask her best pal, cos that was her plan.

and i wonder who will be the best man.
i dont have a say cos is not MY wedding.
funny thing is yst sab went to have supper with lawrence good buddies.
and when they know i'm the bridesmaid, they both kept pestering sis to choose one of them to be the bestman.

my sis got so irritated.
she shut them up by telling them i have a loving boyfriend.

went to school today.
like finally.
bad start cos i broke my damn nail while trying to open the door for some strangers.
and the door close like damn fast, so only my nails come in contact.
and thats how it happened.

& the boy is on a roadtrip.
hope he's having fun & doing fine.
dear readers, pls be nice & pray for him to be safe.
thanks.

go listen to bon jovi's bed of roses.
dopee to de max.
love it !

happppy girl

2006-07-23T16:51:00.000+08:00

tannin' was awesome.

but i don't like bengs. trying to hook up with the worst pick up lines ever.
first two of them came over and say their friends want to know us.
we ignored.
another two came and tell us their side sun is stronger, we should go over there and tann with them.

i give a fuck up face and said no.

then after they left, monicalove & i laugh like some mad women.

i love monmon cos i can share so much with her, bout life & boyfriend.
& more tanning pls ((((:
her boyfriend is duper good to her, they should totally ROM now.

& my boy is so randomly sweet today.
awww..
i love him soooo very much

life without school is good.

but sigh, is monday tmr.
fuck.

sunday (:

2006-07-23T09:08:00.000+08:00

i'm gg tanning now with monicalove.
whoever reading this, pls pray for me that it won't rain.
i need a tann badly, i'm so fair now ):

kisses to my fav boy.
he loves me, and that is worth everything.

2006-07-23T03:15:00.000+08:00

caesar, i love you so much.

fly away with me

2006-07-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

random.

i am afraid of the dark. whenever i sleep ALONE, the lights must be on.
i dislike coffee ALOT.
i'm scared of waking up one day and realize i'm not in caesar's life anymore.
but i too know, time will heal everything. even a broken heart.
i really HATE it when i talk to people online/in person and they reply me with "OH", i know they dont mean to be rude. but i just don't like it. maybe i'm just damn weird.
the only thing i eat which can swim is FISH.
i don't like girls with unshave armpit.
i'd always love netball.
i miss my childhood.
i trust 3 people with my life.
& even though i fear death, i'd die for this 3 people.
i get damn irritated if people say smth but actually mean another thing. nvm, think you probably dont know wtf im saying.
i wish it never happened.
i miss the boy so much. & i wish he knows.

stairway to heaven

2006-07-20T02:36:00.000+08:00

i still remember how i ran home after my exam to watch stairway to heaven.
& always cry until my eyes damn swollen.

if only there's someone like KSW character, he'll be the perfect man.
KSW (:
but is impossible.

still, i got my caesar.
& that's enough.

no use

2006-07-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

i know some people who know bout IT shit can still access and view my blog.
~~and i'm starting to dislike it.~~
my counter jump so fast, that i wonder who's reading my entries.
quite scary though.

anyway, i either switching blog host(support private entries) or going manual.
but of cos, i won't close my blog cos is 3 yrs of rantings.
maybe i'll come back once in awhile and update?
dont know.

i'll see how.

hmmmm.
think i'll still blog here. but maybe less entries ?
cos i have this really pretty diary, and i think i should use it (:

the boy is gone.

2006-07-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

& so is one year, 365 days
before i get to see the boy again.

hopefully end of yr, i'll be able to go with his parents.
his parents are very nice people, i swear.

even without blessing from close friends,
still i know he is worth every bit of my effort.

he called me before he board the plane.
i miss my boy.

live for fun, loyal to none

2006-07-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

& i just can't stop crying.
he not even gone, yet i miss him so much already.

thoughts.

2006-07-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

how to hold on to someone you never meet before?

i'm can't wait for the lake house to release. i'm dying to catch it!
& i seriously hope mom will say yes, when i tell her i want to quit school.

password

2006-07-18T12:54:00.000+08:00

& now i can say everything i want.

old school

2006-07-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

saw it in mei ting's blog.
last time crazy over it, think the song super nice.

is so hard to let go, cos we've been thru so much.
thank you for loving me, and i know you're putting in effort.

this time round, i think i'll cry till damn bad when he fly back to perth.
i'll miss him so much, for sure.

sftydgcsidgtsbiifihysmybpfyagb

sigh

2006-07-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

the boy's gg back perth in 3 days.
suddenly got flashback of me waiting for him at the airport on my birthday.
& how happy i was to see him & feel him.

i miss him already.

2006-07-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

enough.

2006-07-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

don't bother don't bother don't bother don't bother don't fuckin' bother DON'T FUCKIN BOTHER bout it.
there, see what i mean.
he means so much to me, every lil thing thats link to him affects me so damn much !

maybe i'm just a paranoid bitch.

anyway, i think i've got a really wonderful sis. she freakin love me so much la.
she spent so much on me today.
i feel guilty for maybe a few seconds. laugh.
she's gg genting with lawrence tmr, i'll miss her.
sigh

i watched the ching chong chow video of 4 girls beating that one girl.
no comments.
=

the boy makes me laugh,
& i miss him so much.

hearts

2006-07-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i look at the boy, i wonder how is it possible for me to love someone so much.

i miss him even though he's beside me.

huggs hon (:

blank

2006-07-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

love is such a strong word. and if you are going to use it, make sure you know what it means. cause it hurts to hear and know that you don't mean it.

kind of perfect

2006-07-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

but things cant be perfect , all the time
that i know, sometimes we just have to let some things go.

rainraingoaway ):

2006-07-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

tanning with darling monica today,
too bad it rained.
it start raining the moment we reach.
so we chat over cupnoodles & green tea(:
the ultimate boyfriend junkies,
whenever we meet up, our conver is mostly bout the boyfriends (:
& of cos, random chat and life.
I SWEAR darling & dom dom so gona get married.
they're like so FOR each other.
anyway, we tan for ....20mins ?
then it start to rain again.
freak.

STILL, we had so much fun & i totally enjoyed myself.

another tanning girlfriend !
who loves her boyfriend alot
who loves hot&spicy chips as well (:

emo shots of my fav girl

cute eh, two lil kids inside a sand hole.
i walked over and ask them to smile to my cam & they did (:

she's so adorable.

the used batteries & soccerball.

the girlfriend said chill & don't be sad, and the other one said WTF.
i don't understand why must things be like this.
i mean if i know something is making the person i love upset, then i won't do it or go along with it.

emotionally drained.
maybe it bout time.

i'm going to bed.

25 C

2006-07-09T02:28:00.000+08:00

i love my hair now (:
cos the boy loves it. when he got off the bus, he kept smiling.

the east coast bbq was fun.
a pity i don't eat 2/3 of the food population.
cos kelvin whipped out lots of yummy food, prawns, pig liver, fish, chicken etc.
the food's really good.
he brought a frying pan to prepare the food.
serious right ? professional right ?
LOL

had baileys, and some random drinks.
i'll choose froster over hoegarden(sp)
the boy said i drank a lot ever since he got back.
but no more drinking once he fly back.
hmm.

i saw lots of bg people at east coast.
and tp people as well.

i hope i can make you feel better.

i took a damn nice picture of the used batteries and a soccer ball.
post it up other day, im tired.

he's the one.

omg

2006-07-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

this is it.
my hair is short now.
i'm not gona whine much, cos hair will grow, and is my own decision to snip them off.
time for a change, but i do miss playing with my long hair ):

i'll learn to love the new hair, and i feel lighter now (:

bathe & go for the bbq.
i can't wait to see the boy's reaction.

whine

2006-07-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

12 more days till the boy fly back to perth.

a month ago, i was counting down the days till he comes back.
i'll freakin miss him like so much, cos he won't be flying back anytime soon.

you're my boyfriend, you've always been here for me.
this love is serious, no matter what people think.

should go bathe now, hair appt at 1 pm.
i'm cutting short hair, for the boy (:
& bbq tonight = spending time with caesar = happy love ((:

& the boyfriend like to ask me : " are you okay/bored ? "
whenever he bring me out to drink with his friends/hang out with his friends.
he wants to make sure i'm not bored, or tipsy etc.
caesar is my 100% pure sugar.

weird

2006-07-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

"oh best friend, i didn't hear from you again."

blessed

2006-07-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

& so, i do not need a reason to be angry with God.
cos he let caesar zhong come into my life.
even though school's no longer happy happy anymore,
even though i lost two people that i thought was for real,
at least i got him.

I WANT TO QUIT SCHOOL.
pls mom.

madness

2006-07-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

he's acting like a crazy person suddenly.
shrugs

italy is going to win world cup '06 (:

♥ i wish you were here tonight to see the northern lights

2006-07-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

thank you for making my life miserable.

i failed one paper, but passed the only subject which i studied.
yet to get back 2 more papers, gone case for sure.

& this is the first time i fail my term test.

gona meet up with skater boy tmr.
town as usual.
since last yr he wants to teach me skate, till now still haven.
bryant is a liar,
no wonder there's a hold on his pants.
i'll bug him bout the skating lessons tmr.

& i'm cutting my hair short within this week.
i dont want, but then i figured why not?
i've long hair for bout yr 1/2
afterall is just hair, its gona grow back right ?
shrugs.
but then again, so many people are telling me NOT TO CUT
i'm confused.
tag the board and give me some suggestions ?

i always feel everyone deserve to be happy, deserve to feel loved. so don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. just go for it, simple.
is like even though i use to receive negative remarks,views on my r/s with sar, i still give my best cos i know, he is what i want.
but lately, i'm starting feel my best is not enough. then again, since when there's something called enough when it comes to relationship? no matter how much you love someone, there's always something lacking.

is there really so much to chat about? gah!

all our life we search for someone to love, someone to make us complete. we choose partners and change partners. we dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, someone perfect is searching for us.

& when you found the perfect stranger, the one & only, pls cherish them.
cos the pain of loss is somehow, unbearable.
no matter how you try to deceive yourself, is still painful.

a lot of people tend to take things for granted. & i dont like to see that. i mean i've seen friends take their gf/bf for granted, or friends being taken for granted. perhaps these people just have a mindset that the one or things will always be there. or maybe these are the ones who have yet to experience true love.
for i believe if you met the one, you won't want to lose them to anything, including death.

enough of relationships.

i believe there's a place where the restless souls wander, burdened by the weight of their own sadness. they wait for a chance to set the wrong things right. only then can they be reunited with the ones they love. sometimes, a crow shows them the way; because sometimes, love is stronger than death.

oh, i'm sick of school.

<3

2006-07-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

或许你不知道,其实我也在等待另一个奇迹.
当你笑着找到你的相信,我会将这三个字化作你的姓名,永远地放在心里.

fly away with me

2006-07-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

this is random.

whenever i IM with monicalove, our conve contain lots of CAPITAL WORDS.
she always tell me how much she loves me (:
i miss hanging out with shawnieeeeee!
feel like eating laksa with lots of chilli. slurps
i need to drink water
i want to finish up all the chocolates that jillian gave me, she's so nice.
i should start eating the other 2/3 of food population
feel like dropping out of school
i want to tann with junnie cos i want to bring her to THAT place soon
i'm gona watch germany vs italy match later. i pray italy will win, cos i dont want the boy to be upset.
fuck school.
i love doin crazy to de max nonsense with hon
i miss michelle ang, so much.

i dont want tmr to come. i want fast forward to thursday.

that's so you

2006-07-03T14:56:00.000+08:00

it's a beautiful day

now I'll be ok that you're not away

yesterday was a terrible day

but now that you're here I'm ok

cause you don't know how much I, I need you

please don't go

you're so wonderful

this I swear, this I know

you, oh you, every single thing you do

i'm so proud of you

what you do

when you do the things you do

they're so you

so thanks for your help

you shine so bright

you are the star that's in my sky

& I am yours and you are mine

i'm so proud of you

That's so you

what makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

2006-07-03T02:16:00.000+08:00

& it feels good to know after all the shit, he still loves me so freakin much
yes, we're ~~damn in~~ even more in love now (:

sab love junn, i love junn as well (:
they call each other sab sis, sis junn.
so cute la. and i MUST bring both to the beach that the boy brought me.

LOVE

no hero in her skies

2006-07-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

i'll be so fine & i'll get over it (((:
don't worry !

& now, i'll head to town, and do crazy things with brownieJ

for you i will

2006-06-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

omfg. is not over.
wah lao.
sighsighsigh

with this song, i'll send you to the moon

2006-06-30T14:59:00.000+08:00

last night was tough, i thought i was gg to die or something.
sab wanted to send me to the hospital, but i just kept whinning and crying. i didn't sleep the whole freaking night. bout 7 i got ready and went to the doctor, and after the medication, i'm feeling so much better. phew.

but i swear i want to take a gun now, go upstair and shoot the person who has been drilling non stop the whole damn day. GAH! i can't sleep with all the drilling noise !

sighsighsigh

lazy wed

2006-06-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

okay, i know i'm getting way too much.
first, i never really did attend my lectures in the past,
NOW, I NEVER GO AT ALL.

fuck.

but i'm so tired lately, i could hardly get myself outta my comfy bed. even if i wake up around 7 plus, reply to messages, i'll fall back to sleep. wake up, sleep again. & the cycle continues. DAMN, got to stop my nonsense.

& the project which i have yet to really start on, is due this friday.
OPSY case study due next monday. MDBS due next next wednesday. MAN, i hate poly with all the never ending projects, deadlines, exams, test, quiz. FUCK.

the boy is going back newurbanmale.com to work for awhile. i can't whine bout it cos i'm the one complaining bout how i miss seeing him at the flipflop shop. but still, booooo!

back to project.

suck thumb. there's only THIS much i can do.

i'm back to manual. closing this soon (:

copeland

2006-06-28T01:28:00.000+08:00

when they come knocking on your heart's door, choose the one who loves you more.

GAH!

2006-06-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

if only.. if only

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gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!gah!

i don't feel good after knowing
seriously, the guy just don't get it.

ignore this post, thank you.

feel the lovee <3

2006-06-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

SAY HELLO (((:
i look damn ugly, but fuck it! had fun (((:

shawnie's oversize blazer and our random pose !

the one.

aww .. (((:

with love (:

is good to know i can see the boy anytime i want,
for a whole month (:

-beams

chill chill

2006-06-25T05:05:00.000+08:00

no hard feelings babe.
just that i dont want to be blame for things i never say or did. example : some random tagging on your friend's tagboard.

everyone should just chill ((:

had fun with the boy as usual ! ice cold beer/stellar bar the whole night, im damn tired now.
tanning later, & then is school the next day. BOOO

cool water woman, yay (:

and again

2006-06-24T14:10:00.000+08:00

what comes around goes around.
karma, believe it.

adam, i saw your tag on lyn's blog (((:
this song is niceee!
dope to de max

thoughts.

2006-06-24T13:06:00.000+08:00

is funny to see how mean girls can get, and how manipulative some people am.
to influence and play with her little friend's mind, make them believe that some people are cheena, hot stuff and what's not.
i never spoke a word to her friends before, and thus, i find it bizarre they think i'm actually blogging bout them.
i mean why is there a need for me to do something like that? hilarious.

i'm fine with name calling, i mean i'm not here to please everyone.
and certainly is okay for you to blog what you want, cos end of the day is YOUR blog.
i'm cool with it.

as much as i want to be protected by the boy,
when i'm with my girlies, i feel that i'm there to protect them from boys and mean ones.
as a matter of fact, most of my girlfriends are pretty nice people.
and there's this ultimate angel,
she's so nice and sweet to her friends, she's totally harmless. is rather disturbing for me to see her being nice to other, yet they give her the cold shoulders or take advantage of her.

and most of the time, these people end up feeling bad/guilty and try to be nice to her when she walk pass them again.
why shit on other people's face, then feel sorry and start clearing it ?

it happened twice right infront of me.
in school, and in town.

she's so nice, that people take advantage of her.
and i don't like to see that.
i mean who will like right?

there's some things i heard from others bout this girl, but i guess i shuld just shut my mouth bout it.

another thing funny is, why when you don't like/ or HATE certain people, you tend to like to read their blog so often and like to know bout their life and all.
i mean why you even bother by their life when you dislike them so much right?

and i find it sad how people can just say they HATE someone so easily. i mean, what these people did to deserve so much hatred from you ? did they kill you loved ones, ruin your life or something ?

it takes a lot to hate someone, and is very tiring.
been there.

but theres some of my friends who blog bout their hatred for particular people, i understand because i know what these people did to deserve the hatred.

kiddish when you say you hate liars, back stabber, etc.
isnt it obvious ? who will like them?
i think that's dislike not hate.

but at the same time, it takes even more to forgive someone you really hate before.
and i'm happy for this friend of mine who's free of hatred now.
i know it tiring for her, but i'm just glad she took a step forward and overcome it.

lesson learnt :
FORGIVE & NEVER FORGET.
so you will not place your trust on the wrong ones again.

The lucky one

2006-06-24T04:47:00.000+08:00

now i know, who's for real and who's not.

birthday was a blast.

i reached the airport around 9pm,
waited anxiously for the boy while talking on phone with shawniepaul.
and then, i saw him.
dressed in red tees and cap, ~~with super long hair~~. heh
i didnt cry, i just waved.

when he came out, he gave me such a warm tight hug
the hug that i'll remember for life (((:
jillian was sweet, she was on the same flight and she served the boy well.
i know she's such a nice sis to the boy, with her on the flight, nothing to worry.
anyway, the boy came back with love, and presents for his girl.

next we're suppose to head home, get dress and head for zouk.
but instead we chill at roomful (((:
damn nice to be back, with him.
and company by shawniepaul & steffio, junnieee and wayne rooney, hanwei & canmi(is that how to spell her name ??)

& the boy went on stage, sang me a song.
i just sat there, look at him, and feel his love.
he sang " LOVE ME " by colline raye
whenever he reach the chorus, he looked at me & smile. awww...
it ended off with a kiss.

he always give me what i want.

chilling with the groups, camwhore with the girls, kisses and hugggs from the boy.
that was how i spend the remaining hours of my 18th.
simple & sweet.

shawniepaul and junnie played a prank on me, but they surprise me twice as well.
damn touched.

alright, thanks for all the bday greetings and sweet msg.
thanks to all the old friends that text me.
heart the two lovelies so much, let's do the couple night out again someday (((:
lastly, thank you caesar, for flying back && rejecting the 500bucks and first class seat.
apparently, the flight was overloaded and they want people to take the next one with such great offer. but baby told them : " no i cant, i need to rush back cos is my girl's birthday "
thanks for the lovely song, && all the loveee

the boy new year resolution was to fill my life with so much love till it overflows.
he did it.
i'm drowning. && i'm lovin' it

MOS soon ((:

&& lastly, i'm touched by all the affections.
should go sleep cos the boy's gona meet the folks tmr ((:

this is it !

2006-06-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

&& so, is to the airport to pick the boy and then we gona party whole day with the loved ones ((:

i swear my sis is the best ever, heart her so much !

Part I

2006-06-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

finally 23rd June, 18th birthday ((:

and yes, the boy was the first one, even when i was online talkin to 12 people when its 12. the boy was still the first cause he called ((:

then junn was so funny, she called and ask " am i the first ? am i am i? "
i said, no the boy was.
she said caesar cheated cos her clock was 00.00.00 am when she called !
silly hon.
the boy said his timing is world timing, cfm won't wrong one.

then came the birthday greetings online, and on my phone.
outta e blue, my door bell rang.
standing outside was my two lovelies, with a small cup of ice cream and candles ((:
touched by their surprise and all of us, including sis
talk bout tonight's plan.

brownieJ & shawniepaul, thanks <3

i think italy got the top goal keeper. i'm damn impressed
and brazil played well for the second half,
and harry kewell scored the equalizer for aust match (((:

sab & shawnie are both happy now.

i cant wait to see the boy (:

tonight's the shit.

later

sing, sing, sing

2006-06-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

though the boy never dedicate any songs to me before,
i still like being there when he sings,whether is at pub or anywhere else.

i know i dont need the dedication to determine or judge how much he loves me,
still i hope he will, someday.
especially if it is our song.

afterall, i'm just a girl.
in love.

Don't Cry

2006-06-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

guess i didnt blog bout monica that crazy girl.
went out with her last friday
after 9898734534 times of wanting to meet up,
we finally did.

caught silent hill together, & i swear that girl is damn cute when she watch horror movie.
next time if i ever need donation of any kind, i will just go look for her ((((:

& we're both boyfriend junkies.

is damn sweet whenever she talks bout dom.
and you can almost see sparkles in her eyes.
she told me they thought of getting engage after poly,
& i told her i'm getting married at age 22.
LOL.

madness to de max.

but i love holding her hand and walk around town, just like junn hon.
& we kissed.
heart that crazy nutshell so much (((:

on the other hand, work is pissing me off.
i know i've been ranting bout my bloody job all the time, but i just can't take it.
i can't go to work, & they force me to find my own replacement.
the thing is, NO ONE WANTS TO WORK
and so i cant find a replacement.
but fuck it.

after hearing what sab said,
i seriously decided to quit.
don't bluff me about rising the pay or anything. i think is just bs, cos i've seen friends slogging their ass,waiting for pay rise that never comes.
even after 4-7 months.

that's it.

oh,the good thing is rachel is helping me cover my shift, i know she not willing to.
but she still did. thanks a lot.

but, i'm still quitting.

yst, ah nian msg me and asked what i want for my birthday,
is been awhile since we talk,
& hell i'm glad he didnt forget bout me.
i miss seeing him around school.
& i guess if i screw up this semester, i'll probably see him in my next semester (:

then, bryant msg me as well.
he's working in some pub now, and i guess he's making big money.
i'll probably see him ltr.

& the boy will be back tmr.
-beams

you belong to me

2006-06-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

see the pyramids along the Nile
watch the sun rise from the tropic isle
just remember darling all the while
you belong to me

see the market place in old Algiers
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears
you belong to me

& I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me

oh I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me

& is almost half a yr.

2006-06-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

theOC season 3

sailing with the boyfriend, i think that's dope.
love watching summer (Rachel Bilson) && seth (Adam Brody) together.

lovin' it ((((((((((:

2006-06-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

like what i told my girlfriends,
worldcup = steal the boyfriends away.

thank god, the boy is at down under.
so i dont feel THAT much bout it.

but i know as well that if the boy want to watch soccer match with his guy friends,
he sure will take me along (:

oh,
is irritating to know some girls watch soccer just for all the eye candies.
even worse, when they try to act like they know their shit,
and start blogging/talking all bout it.

is worse than betting.

girls, if you think trying to act like you know it all, then start drooling over all the hot stuff = turn boys on.

you're damn wrong.
it just make the guys think that you're damn shallow and make you look like one bimbo.
and is damn turn off. really.

so quit it.

watch it because it's a beautiful & exciting game.
very much like netball,dragonboat,floorball,basketball
is a team game.
feel the players' passion and their determination to get that one ball into opponent's goal.
feel the unity of the team.

yes, having beckham,kewell and all the hot stuff playing in it, is a plus point.

& if anyone reading this feel offened,
very much due to the fact that you're one of those girls i'm referring to

let me tell you what,
go top right, see the [X] box?
click it and stop reading.

is that simple.

2006-06-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

i miss netball and the bg netball girls.

i miss coach enting and her trgs.

i should seriously consider going back on track to run,
and maybe gg back to SRC.

2006-06-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

is good to know all my girlfriends are doing pretty good
in term of relationship.
&& i think i should set up a club for all the boyfrined junkies (:

had an amazing msn chat with the boy last night.
i love it when he tell me bout his future plans,
and there's always me in it.
i love it when i hear this from him : " i dont know why, but i love to pamper you. "
& of cos, i love to irritate him with my yoga shit.

LOVE IT.

friday seem so far away.

"From the black I know you’re finding your way back home"
dishwalla - above the wreckage

2006-06-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

& it feels like we've been together for 5 years.

2006-06-17T11:49:00.000+08:00

i've decided to quit my job.

2006-06-15T16:30:00.000+08:00

no.10 - Harry Kewell

awww...

2006-06-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

all for you <3

thanks brownieJ and mason for being there
& it was great to just chill out with fish head curry, 50 first dates and my two lovelies (((:

14th June 2006
is more than just a date.

the boy is on top of the world now,
i made it so.

i'm a boyfriend junkie.
lovin' it.

2006-06-14T02:22:00.000+08:00

it's 2.22am
i have my doubts.
i always say, things I don't know won't hurt me.
& i guess, that's how i run away from reality.

2006-06-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me ryhme
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

10 things i hate about you.

2006-06-13T01:42:00.000+08:00

10 things i hate bout you. ((((((((:

and this is my all time favourite - a walk to remember.
cried while watching this.

pls watch to the end, and you will understand why i love this so much.

& now i miss the boy a lot.

2006-06-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

finch's letter to you is on.

random thoughts.

there's always some things that can never be erase from your memory.
bad or good, happy or sad.

and they often bring out feelings that you can "re-feel" over and over again.

for me, the feeling that i feel over and over again, never get bored
and can always put a smile on my face.

was the moment caesar first kissed me.

ya, the moment.

& the boy's not happy.

2006-06-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

sis's 21st was a blast.
she had lots of fun,
but thank god junnie came.

sab received few hundreds hong bao money,
and presents.

this make me a happy girl as well ((((((((((:
*EVIL LAUGHTERS.

and junn gona sleep over.
((((:

GOODNIGHT ALL

2006-06-11T12:18:00.000+08:00

it's sab 21st birthday today,
mom gave her a birthday party, there's alot of people comin later
and i dont know how our house can fit everyone.

she's so happy ((((((:

catering and lots of food, i'm soooooooo looking forward.
& i love my sis.

i shall hugg her so tight later.

and yesterday sab said :" i can't wait to see whose the first one who msg me on my birthday"
and i told her, i got feeling is my boyfriend.

and after i came home from my town trip with brownieJ
sab said : " you're right! your boy was the first to wish me "

i knew it.
my sweet lil thing ((((:

and again, sorry for last night baby.

towned with brownieJ was good, and for the first time,
that girl only bought pretty shoes.
that's all.
*CLAPCLAP

i'm so glad baby and i gona watch the final of world cup together.
cos then, he'll be back.

& he said he found a girl.
love her madly and want to love her family as well.

2006-06-09T10:26:00.000+08:00

it's the start of world cup 2006.

2006-06-07T09:49:00.000+08:00

i'm going to get some ______ on this coming sat, and i just can't wait.
junn will be there as well.

shopping and movie,
we're gona watch she' the man or omen666.

i just can't wait for saturday.

termtest gona be soooooooooooooooooooooo over for me everyone soon.
i know i'm gona die when i get back the results.
but heck it.

i won't be able to enjoy the hols !
noooooooo!
cos i'll be slogging my ass at work again.
BOOO

but i know i'll enjoy tonnes once the hols over.
cos the boy is coming back.

every since i know he's coming back,
i have been thinking of ways to greet him at the airport.
& i swear i'll hugg him so tight.

i want my cool water woman.

2006-06-06T10:47:00.000+08:00

BOOHOO MICH

i'm going to fail today's subject, cos i didnt study at all.
and i'm not doing anything about it.

wanted to wake up early to read through,
but sleepyhead me slept till 10am.

how nice.

well done. ((((:

& i received my first warning letter for skipping one lab and one tutorial for opsy.
well done again.

so many movies i want to watch, i just can't wait for the boy to come back.

2006-06-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

LOVE.

#23 message in my phone inbox
caesar : smile my princess! =)

he's my one and only romeo, i swear.
when i'm having extreme bad day, he's the only one who can make me smile and feel better.

& he said : " we start off difficult, thus we will cherish each other a lot. "

cos, for all i know
he has been awfully sweet to me.
and i can't wait for him to meet the parents when he comes back.

"Put a classic rocker and a punk rock chic together, you get a intense romantic relationship."

baby sent me a lame msg bout 6/6/6.
and since he's oversea now,
i whine bout how he rather send me silly msg than declaring his love for me.
and the next thing i know, he sent me a msg saying " i love you "

simple & sweet.
mean it, i know.

i just think he's the one.
or i try to make him the one.

& yes, is our secret ((:

2006-06-05T16:11:00.000+08:00

monday blues.

i'm not feeling too good.

sab bought a new bikini cos she wants to go tannin with me.
to top it off, she's buying me a new one as well.
least that makes me feel teeny weeny bit better.

its feel really good to know i can tell sab everything and anything.

oh, the paper was okay.

where's my sweet november?

and its all drawn out, there's nothing inside. and nothing to hold, nothing to find. its wearing' me out this feeling inside. I'm all drawn out.
dishwalla - drawn out

2006-06-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

early morning & random thoughts

mornin readers.
is just few hours before my first paper,
i'm nervous, for i know whatever i manage to stuff inside my mini brain,
is not enough.
i might just freak and panic the shitt outta myself,
and do badly for the paper.

which also is the only one i think i'm able to pass.

say a little prayer for me, pls.

i love morning like this,
listening to dishwalla and laze around for awhile.
it will be nice, to have my hotcake serve with butter and lots of honey.
and a cup of hot chocolate.
that will be love.
but even if there's no hotcakes or chocolate drink,
i can still stay like this for the whole morning,
or even the whole day.

my simple and carefree morning,
my kind of simplicity.

for awhile, i'm contented with life itself.

if only, if only.

2006-06-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

dishwalla's songs is dope shit, make me damn high.

for the first time, i think is wrong to have my own computer, im stuck with it whole day playing dishwalla songs and msn.

and is even more wrong to have a guy who never talk to me for 983233685 yrs,
come asking "you have a boyfriend now ? "

funny and weird, i feel.

& i figured, i'm NOT the kind of girl who will fight over a guy if there's another girl in the picture.
i rather the guy choose himself, cos most impt thing is for him to be happy.

also, i don't understand why some girls can come in between a couple, if the couple's love is solid.
lastly, i don't understand how some girls can be soo thick skinned to come and snatch away somethnig which is not hers from the start, or rather, something she throw away herself long ago.

randomly insane, that's what i like to think i am feeling right now.

enlighten me pls.

2006-06-04T19:37:00.000+08:00

blue sky, white cotton candy clouds, green trees, beautiful pink daisies, hot eye candies, windy day, rainy day, morning sunshine, evening sunset, family, trusty friends

caesar and his love.

does all good things come for free ?

non stop crying and a broken heart.
it was till last night,i know i actually have an amazingly wonderful family.
it was till last night,i know how much caesar zhong mean to me.
6 months ago, i get to know a guy.
he came into my ordinary life, turned it upside down.
he sparkle it with so much LOVE,
i have yet to thank him.

i think i'm a lucky girl.

it was also till last night,i realise i have been taking many things and people in my life for granted.
so many, i lost count.

and so, i shall start to cherish all of them.

caesar, thank you.
mean it.

"I wish I could be every little thing you wanted"
dishwalla - every little thing.

2006-06-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

Rascal Flatts
The Day Before You

I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
On the day before youI was ready settled forLess than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true

Oh, but that was all the day before you
Now you're here and everything changes
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to

The day before youIn your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you
The Heaven knows those years without you
Shaping my heart for the that day I found you
You're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Now you're here and everything changes
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I would never have to go back to
The day before you

the kind of silly thing you do when you're tired of muggin & thinking of your boyfriend @ starbucks.

2006-06-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

so for the first time, im bloggin using my own computer and wireless internet access (:
mom's the best la.
she even promise to change all our phone to 3G end of the year.
long wait,but worth it.

i think i have a wonderful mummy.
she take all my shits, pay my fuckin high phone bill, give in to me most of the time.
yet i think i'm damn rude to her.
okay, i shall be a damn good daughter from today.

with internet access at my room, i get to chat till damn late at night,
stay at whole night also can.
least there's less one thing to fight with my bro bout.
& i can talk to my caesar whenever i want!
we had an amazing MSN chat just now (((((((((((:
webcam is sucha great invention.
beat baby sooo gona agree with it.
LAUGHS.
i get to see his facial expression with every single shit i type.
he's soooo damn sweet and cute la.
can't stop loving him <3

omg. i swear i cant for to see him
(((((((((((: <-------------- double chin !
HAHAHA.

i'm gona sleep and mug the shit outta myself tmr.

mymousesucks,anyonekindtobuymenewone!

trip is a dope song ! (dope to e max!)

2006-06-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

& i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers on my hair.

2006-06-02T08:10:00.000+08:00

i just saw a video from youtube, You're beautiful ( A tribute to tammy )
some guy did it for her.

heard from my friends that he had this huge crush on her since she was sec 3 in bg.
and of cos, tammy is one of the beautiful girl in school, no doubt.

no to be mean, but that guy look kinda freaky throughout the "mtv"
and pls, if you want to make a video,
least choose a decent place to shoot it.
like totally wrong to shoot inside your bedroom with all the "chappalang" shit behind.

i can't stop laughing, seriously.

2006-06-01T08:44:00.000+08:00

i just delete away a 2 page long post,
i should just keep it to myself.

internet access from my bedroom makes me a happy girl.
FRIDAY.

bestie, i cant wait for 2 july ((((((:

2006-05-30T12:40:00.000+08:00

i skipped lectures again,
for the 982323times this sems.
fuck me, i deserve to be slap.

anyway, i'm pretty ~~disgusted~~ shocked by her actions.
isnt it weird when you know this person, and when you're prepare to say HI or smile,
she just turn away so fast and pretend she didnt see you when she did !?

and pls, stop saying i look like the one mention above.
we are very different.
junn, thanks for thinkin i don't look like her ! HUGGS for that.

and what's with all the fireman viewing my profile and want to be my friend?
?
sorry but no pls, i dont know yall.

and studying with jun the whole week.
i'll make sure we stick with it.
uh huh.

mad laughters in project rm, i love how i can just say everything & anything to junn.
and we had fruits instead of junks. 3 cheers for that.
i swear i need to go on diet.

great, mich ang is comin to look for me tmr in campus.

is cos of love, the boy got the calling cards.
&& also, the air tickets back to me.

LOVESS (;

2006-05-28T20:10:00.000+08:00

LOVE

amazing saturday night with brownieJ.
had lots of fun as usual, and we didnt study at all.
OOPS!

but freak it, i had so much fun.
we held hands & walk everywhere,
licked each other like nobody business.
& i swear ppl think we're lesbo, but fuck it.
we don't give 2 shits bout it.
(((((:

of cos, we didnt forget bout our dear shawnie ((:
& i swear we're his sugar,spice and everything NICEE.

to end the crazy amazing saturday night,
i received the best news ever.
and i seriously can't thank you enough for all the thoughtful decison you made.

and so, this time round
i'll able to pick you up
and no, i wont be crying.
i'll be smiling so sweetly at you
and give u a big squashy hugg
and our 23 mins long kiss.

& i know i'm the happiest girl last night.

2006-05-27T10:38:00.000+08:00

readin random blogs.
and this blog caught my attention

she's my friend's friend.
she's very much in love with someone who's not really cherishing her.
or so, that's what i feel.

and she's not giving up,
and im really happy that she's going way out for it.
cos you have to fight for love.
just like me.

it wasnt really easy for me and caesar.
the start was really difficult.
i'm just glad i stay on.
never give up on him, us.
and now we are very much in love even though we dont get to see each other (((:
and i'll keep my faith till his return.
then, we'll be even more in lovee.

and so he said he got my 18th present.
somehow, i know what suprise he got for me.
i'm keeping my fingers cross,
and no! i won't say much cos i don't want to jinx it.
but at the same time, i dont want to have much hope,
cos i know i'll be uber upset if its not what i'm thinking.

still, i can't wait for that day (((:

met up with mich ang yesterday.
and i'm soooo happy. truly.
she didnt lie or anything.
she promise she set aside time for me when she's free,
and true enough, she did.

we talk so much so much.
& i'll make sure we become _ _ _ _ _ _ _ together ((((:

" i don't care who's the bridesmaid, i only want you to be the bride."

2006-05-26T09:17:00.000+08:00

brownieJ wrote 2 awfully sweet testimonial to me & my boyfriend.
she's a doll.

terms timetable's out.
4 papers to sit for, and i have no idea how to get through all of them.
i'll start muggin' ~~now~~ soon

sar's housemates piss the shit outta him,
i'll stop right straight away if im them.
but it's too late,cos he decided to shift out.
& i know soon they'll totally regret what they have done.
he's my mafia boyfriend remember?
((((:

so is gona be a very tough month for both of us.
we'll be fine, no worries.
we've lots of faith, right dear?

great, it's the weekend.

i love the fact that i'm always the best in his eyes.

2006-05-25T08:59:00.000+08:00

pang pang was gooooood !

we had lots of food, and i drank milodinooo ((((:
had so much laughters and i swear i loveeee the two so much.
they totally brightens up my day.

and yes, i am going to put in extra more effort in my studies.

i love the facts he always place me before himself.
((((((:

2006-05-23T09:23:00.000+08:00

i'm fat.
i've gained so much weight cos of all the late night supper, junk foods and everything la.
bottomline - i'm ~~sooo~~ fat now.

to think that hon thinks she's fat.
i swear she's a hua sheng ke.
she's like freaking slim, yet she thinks she's fat.
WHAT BOUT ME HON !?
laughs.

anyway, i have no fear, cos the only person i need to look good for is all the way down under.
and i have 20 months to slim down before that silly kiddo comes back (((((((:

i love to think of him, cos there always be a hugee smile right across my ROUND face !

do you get affected by this particular person alot.
like little things they do, say matters alot to you.
or even, the smallest thing can make you feel jealous/sad/happy/angry.
then yes, you love that person, so much more than you know.

you know lifts alway have bad reception, and when you're talking to someone on the phone, you would ask the person to call you back.
but i guess, caesar zhong is the only one,
whom i won't mind climbing 12 storeys for.
and this i know, is love.

and is also out of love,
he got the calling card.

is exactly a month to my 18th.
freak, time is passing so damn fast,
is hard to keep up.
and i'm so sure im gona flunk this sem.

i cant wait for 23 june cos somebody got make a suprise !
which i know, will sure make me cry,
just like the time he tell me he's comin back.

and all i need is him.

PS ; i'm finally going to say bye to the devil.

2006-05-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

and so, my hon got in modern (((:

told you my presence makes you happy, so you dance well !
LAUGHS.

well done hon, you totally deserve it.

2006-05-22T11:43:00.000+08:00

they're so chingchow shit.
LAUGHS.

i feel protected cos i got a mafia boyfriend.
he got like one thousand rocker boys working for him.
so i know he's watching over me.

2006-05-22T09:23:00.000+08:00

guess what ? i'm having lab & tutorial later, and i'm totally skipping it. i missed two lab for alrd, i soo sure i'm gona get debar unless i go get MC.
OH FUCK, i'm like sooo heck bout my studies now.
but nevermind la
cos caesar say i can quit school if i like, cos he's gona support me no matter what.
sweet !

my boyfriend is sooo stress out with everything in aust cos there's never ending assignment to do, fuckhead housemate (serious retard shit especially the fat bitch, oops!) and lastly he just miss me too much la !
pray hard i'll get to fly over, and pray hard he'll fly back again (((:
"i got piggybank" i swear he sound like a 6 years old kiddo when he said that.
i got him a nice soccer cartoon havanais, i procrastinate for 5 months before getting it.

"There's a superstition saying 'never buy shoes for your partner, cos if you do, he/she will run away'. So does anyone here reckon that I'll be a runaway groom? Haha, I don't think so."
<3

he's the sweetest things on earth.

saturday was crazy!

i swear i love tsai wen jun so much la, freak. YES, only i know why she love me so much, and only she know why i love her so much ((((:
KESHIA said we're like the bestest friend, that's so funny. LAUGHS. she's my brownie, one and only.
more LidoMac talk okay? (((:

oh we met keshia on bus 14 ! she's so pretty and sweet pls ! and not forgetting,she's slim as usual. glad to see her after a REALLY LONG time. and we shall all hang out together someday, all the ex-bg girls. LAUGHS.

isnt it funny to think that we never really talk much in the past, and now,
i see her everyweek, share so much with her and we're both shawnie's angels (((:
and we gona make shirts with boyfriend name on it, we'll be at each other wedding and most importantly, we'll be HOT MUMs wearing tube top tgt! HAHAA, so funnny !

i'll keep the faith.

2006-05-19T09:50:00.000+08:00

my lecture notes ; his drawings.

he is, love.

2006-05-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

woke up 0745am when tutorial starts at 1000am.
DAMN, how nice.
im getting far too lil sleep these days.
NO, i didnt go back to sleep though.
i thought for once i'll be EARLY for my mdbs tutorial.
so happily went to get ready, thought of gg to school to print the lecture notes as well.
but in the end, i drag drag drag.
END UP
never print any notes,
& 15 mins late for my tutorial.
i swear i'm HOPELESS.

i hate school now. i really do.
i wish there's less things to worry about.
i wish we never met.

i want to ran away from you
cos then, i might just be a lil bit happier.

i figure, i'll probably repeat this whole sem.
unless i start puttin' in effort,
but like what my boyfriend said,
i'm a procrastinator.

sigh.
there's so many things to sigh about.
fuck.

i should seriously start listening to my boyfriend.
cos, so far, he's always right.
whenever i tell him IT WON'T HAPPEN
shits happen.
and he prove me wrong so many times,
i lost count.
so, yes, i'm gona listen to him.
be his good girl ((:

is gona be depression.
and i can only get out of it, when year 2008 comes.

i feel like withdrawing out of school,
be like chrissy darling.
man, i miss that babe so much.
she's going NAFA.
lucky girl.

what goes around comes around.

2006-05-17T15:22:00.000+08:00

school's a bitch.
fuckin tough and i dont understand any shits.
oh, and i dress damn slack to school these days.
cos i wake up late,no time and all the shit,
i'm always late.
loser.

my last entry was posted out of extreme anger.
but i'm fine now.
really

i miss caesar alot lately,

and i don't know why.

should i ? should i not?

i need some freakin' answers.

2006-05-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU !

so fucking much.

2006-05-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

ARGH !

2006-05-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

#600.

this is my 600 post. OMG.

i swear i love blogging !

check this out, from one lovely boyfriend ;

"My girl is a procrastinator. She can be very emotional. She is always at random mode. She likes yellow peanuts m&m and I wonder why. She likes romance and I'll be her Romeo. She likes to dance and I'll take her to a club. If she loves the stars, I'll put one on my shoulder. If she wonders why, I'll tell her 'nevermind' cos she is mine."

sweet ar?

i should stop procrasting. cos my boyfriend hate it !
and wonder why i love yellow peanuts m&m soo much ? cos he bought me one on our first date, it makes me smile ((:
i dont mind yellow almond m&ms, cos is yummy as well.

he's my Romeo.

2006-05-11T08:51:00.000+08:00

mornin sunshine ((((:

met rahim on my way to school twice recently.
he said i walk like got wind,
dont know what he mean by that,
but i take it as a compliment.
LAUGHS.

met up with brownie yst,
saw her gg outta school.
YAY!
anyway, we decide to have dinner together,
of cos we called shawnie along.
i swear that guy think we are NUTSHELLL !
cool bean
LMAO.
apparently i kept saying all these lil things,
and both them start using it soooo very often.
i bet they're laughing now.
shawnie said i'm just like that,
and he loves me for being me.
aww..

i'm feeling really fat now.
i think i should go jog or something.
been really damn long since last went on tracks.
BOOOO!

lunch with fel yst was good.
talk sooo sooo much ((((:
i miss that woman.

i swear i'm gona die this sem,
so many question marks.
DIEEEEEEEEE !

everytime i ask, you alway got something on.
i lost count.
whatever.

ashley parker angel is such a hottie !!
he used to be in O-TOWN
omfg, i like that band so much in the past
and he's my FAV!
now, he gone solo.
&& let you go is sooo NICE la.
the way he propose to his girlfriend is damnn touching.
sooooo sweeeeet

i wanna watch sweet november with sar <3

2006-05-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

Ohio is for lovers.

i miss sleeping beside sar ;
i miss kissing his candyfloss taste alike lip ;
i miss the way he play with my hair ;
the way he kiss my forehead ;
i miss his smell ;
i miss talkin to him online ; ( its been 98753200 yrs since the last online chat )

i miss caesar )):

i seriously hate school now,
and sometimes i feel uneasy.
and is really shitty to know i cant voice out everything here,
even though is MY blog.
SIGH

sar is having his presentation right bout now,
i have faith that he will do well.
my rocker is one responsible guy (((:
but his groupmates is such assholes
they dont do anything.
THAT IS WHY I ASK HIM TO QUIT SCHOOL
come back to *ME !
LAUGHS.
he cant stand me ))):
though school is soo tiring
i'm sooooooooo sure he'll feel better when he call me
he said i know 101 ways to make him feel better
he is soo wrong !
is 1001 ways.

somehow, i know this is gona be a tough yr.
it's alrd 3rd week of school,
and i swear i know nothing, N O T H I N G.
i'm gona die die die.
SIGH

is kinda sad to know
you put so much trust in someone,
yet they are the ones who hurt you in return.
and no,
is hard to get back to normal.
is not easy, and it feels weird at times.

i guess time is just another factor.

but i pray it will be alrightt (:

alan is soo funny, he just msg me online.
saying MR SELFISH want to use the computer.
that's our nickname for my brother !
LAUGH

smile to this caesar,
" i love that after i spend day with you, i can still smell your perfume on my clothes. "

(((((((((((((:

&&& i loveee my boyfriend.

2006-05-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

i love receiving cards and mails from my boyfriend ((((((:

2006-05-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

crying is the only way i can vent everything out.

2006-05-07T03:30:00.000+08:00

i won't let him go, never.

this means so much to me.
having you is enough.